They say "absence makes the heart grow fonder" but then there are some who say "out of sight out of mind". What is it, it gets me thinking. How does all of this work. You came out of no where in my life and I never realized. When things started drifting apart, a realization hit and it hit me hard in the face, when did you become all so important to be actually thought about or maybe cared for. What was it that was drawing me towards you. Why was it becoming difficult to move on without you. You were never by my side but I guess you always were maybe as a silent observer. As the realization hit, maybe it slapped me back to reality, why were you there, since when?? Its hard to cope up when you know, inside you are broken and yet pose out to be strong. Do not really want to share it with some body, but then its getting claustrophobic here. Where do I go? what do I do? I am practically left with no option. I cant really rely on you, cz apparently you never mustered up the courage to stand beside me. Now that I have realized , I still am not sure. This life hasn’t really treated some of my homies nicely. So, how can I, somebody who is always like, this is bull crap! This doesn’t quite exist, its nonsense, go and extend my hand. I am afraid yes I am, cz it was never my thing and I think wont ever be. But then what is it, its bothering me….. Help me figure out, why don’t you just break this silence of yours and just blurt it out. Do it please, its all quiet and this silence is getting disturbing now!! Help me move on or maybe just go away! so that I know nobody was there, it was just an illusion or maybe a nightmare!
